Photography thoughts

 

The photography always was there. I wasn't always sure

if I'll do anything with it or not, but it always was there.
I received my first camera when I was 8 years old. It was

a pocket camera, a kind of camera which was popular at

the '70 and early '80 of the 20 century. My second camera

was the same. Both of those cameras used by my sisters

before me. My sister Gali who's grown up from me at nearly

a dacade learned photography at a yound age while all cameras

were on films and no one imagined digital cameras. I used to be 

her model when she needed for homeworks. Yeah, I'm a weirdo 

who loved both sides of the camera.

For years I was thinking of doing something with photography,

but I was afraid. Art is so personal. I was afraid of what would

forigen people will see in my photos. I was afraid to expose too much.
I was working at other things, but the thoughts if to do something

with the photography or keeping it as a hobby stayed.

Then I came back to Tel Aviv after a long pause in another city.

I had a feeling that I must learn something. I started to learn

flamenco. I started learning too late, I don't practice enough

and I'm not sure that I have enough tallent anyway for

being a proffesional dancer, but.... Accept having some

wonderfoul people that got into my life and became really

good friends of mine - I became more sure in myself

and who I am. After watching an art exhibition with

my sister and my mother - I decided it's time. My sister Gali

connected me to a curator who got me in to the first

exhibition I took a part at. The comments that I received made

me think why didn't I do it before.

For years I took a part at group exhibitions, autodidact and

afraid that people will find out that I still use smateurs' cameras.

Then I wanted to take some dance photos like I saw from some

other photographer. I got my first proffesional camera. And

it didn't take long till I got into dance photography workshops.

And got myself into a music magazine and taking photos

at rock and indie rock shows. And taking photos of my

friends from the flamenco. I started learning on regular base

and I still go for workshops to growing up in my ability and be more proffesional.

Now I'm sure it's more than a hobby. It's still taking a part in exhibitions

(I got back to it recently), which is already much more than a hobby.

I try to make a living of it. And it's a part of life, like air for breathing. 

Now not only that I have no fear - I want to know what do people think of

my photography and what do people see in it, even if it's a part of my soul.